This is one of the first verses I memorized as a child. It has stuck with me through many years. It keeps me grounded during the highs and lows of life. When I am walking closely with God, it is a heartfelt truth. When I have wandered away, this verse reminds me of the most important I need to focus on. After a particularly long time of wandering from God, I went back to this verse and actually read the entire chapter. I was amazed at how closely it fit my life! I use this chapter as a prayer. Every time I study it, God shows me more insight.
In this new chapter of my life, this verse again is encouraging me again. (If you aren't sure what chapter of life I am referring to, check out the "about me" on the sidebar.) To truly live this verse, I must allow God to lead me and I must follow. I have to learn what HE is teaching me. And the hardest part?? I have to wait on God for HIS timing!!! When I finally surrendered to follow God regardless of any circumstance, I was ready to go RIGHT NOW. I don't mean I was prepared... I just mean that I was anxious to be about the business God called me to. The more I learn, the more I realize that I am not ready. I have MANY lessons to learn.
My time here in Fort Worth has already been challenging. I have no doubt that many more challenges are coming. Being a college student again is stretching me mentally. Leaving behind everyone I know and all of my support system has been an emotional strain. Working full time while going to school full time has been physically exhausting. And then there is the spiritual training that God is doing: Preconceived notions are being challenged. Faith is being tested. Beliefs are being questioned. Everything is being boiled down to this question, "Is God the true passion of my life? And if so, am I really living that out?" This is a training ground. It is not easy, but I am striving. I want to follow the Lord!!!
God has been teaching me a lot of new lessons and giving me insights. I have been so busy that I have one of those "AHA!" moments and then quickly forget the idea so I don't apply it to my life. The whole concept of this blog is to keep a record of my journey. I want to remember the lessons God is teaching. I am sure I will need to reflect on them again so that I don't forget. I'm sure I will need them to encourage me too. I am sharing them with you for several reasons... mainly because this is a form of accountability. Also, I hope that knowing what I am going through will give you a better idea how to pray for me. And maybe, just maybe, you can find some encouragement here too.
Welcome to my journey!!! May the Lord continue to mold us as we follow, learn and wait!
